Blue Christmas

Today is the 19th of Dec and I am gearing up for the worst Christmas ever. I found
out today that I am spending it completely alone. This will be the first time in my life that I have been completely alone on Christmas day. Actually, the other option of going to my aunt and uncle's place with my parents was not a pleasing one. So I will remain home. Fuck it. I couldn't afford to give gifts this year. Which makes me feel like a world class asshole.Hell, I can't even afford to get myself new fucking shoes and my knees and ankles hurt because of it. I mean, really goddamn ache. Worst of all I have a loser job that requires that I am on my feet all the time.
Seems pretty fucked up right now. But then again I am tired and think that th all sucks shit. Gonna go.

Morning and a cup of tea

So I enjoyed this morning alone on the couch. Cup of tea and the computer. I haven't had a cup of coffee in about 8 months. I was a junkie before that. Constantly at the coffee nook at work. Getting another pick me up.Addictions are hard to overcome. I suppose if I could move from coffee got tea, then I am doing pretty good. I mean, really it's just a new form of caffeine, not that much of an improvement. At least I don't have coffee breath anymore, which is completely disgusting.So that's what I am going to write today. Take care all.